Monday, 1 May 2017

May's weigh in. Am I more than a number? 


Hey guys,

So mays weigh in was a bust. I've gained 2lb and lost my 5 stone lost badge! Woe is me *cue the worlds smallest violin* and to be honest it's really hit me hard. 

That sounds overly dramatic for a 2lb gain when it's me that ate too much but I've been having such a rubbish time lately that this was the crappy icing on top of a shitty cake and I just lost it. 

After holding back tears because no way were Boots customers ready for my ugly crying I decided not to give a damn. As I was in Bury I went to this pancake cafe I'd be eyeing for weeks.

delicious pancake from quick crepe bury


Quick Crepe Bury had a lovely feel and after browsing the rather extensive menu I decided to go sweet with a banana and Nutella crepe as I'm not quite ready to try a savoury pancake yet.

It was delicious! I used the time to reflect on what's happening with me and the fact that I'm ruled by numbers. 

Weightloss or gain in this case
Money
Followers, subscribers and likes
Friends...

All I think about nowadays is about what pounds I'm losing or spending (lol) why people unsubscribe from my channel (it's not a big deal but still why don't they love me?) and if people actually like me or if I'm über annoying! It's a never ending cycle of self doubt and I feel pathestic getting worked up so much over numbers! 

I know this is mostly hormones (curse you pmdd!) and being a greedy bitch but I seriously need an intervention! Self sabotage is not the answer to my problems!

Anyway...it's a new month, let's hope I can shed this extra 2lb at least. Lol 

Much Love,

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