Tuesday, 29 November 2016

Why am I not good enough?!

Hey guys,

Random post which in hindsight I should probably bin and forget about but then I thought no, bubblybex3 is my blog to write about whatever shit I want. Granted I'm mostly moaning about being fat or gushing over the latest eyeshadow palette but you get my meaning. This is my space!

On to the topic at hand. No confidence and self doubt. These are things I feel most of the time. I've touched on the subject of my extreme pmt before (PMDD post here) and how the hormonal fluctuations make me crazy! 

Well did they hit last weekend! After missing my period for months (they stopped due to being too fat! Ha back to the moaning) they have come back with a vengeance! I'm talking monster pmt people! Is this tmi? 

Anyway the catalyst to my emotional breakdown this week was one tiny little thing that in the grand scheme of things means fuck all.

I just don't feel good enough. I feel like people only tolerate me which at 29 is a sad thing to admit whether it's true or not and I hate how insecure I feel when it comes to social situations. Are people even bothered I'm there?!

I wanted to deactivate Twitter, Facebook and snapchat as I felt like the worst person in the world. I was fat, I was ugly and I had this paranoid fear that everyone was going to abandon a sinking ship (unfollow me) coz that's the worst right?

Don't fret, I obviously didn't. It was my mum who told me to stop being a twit and that I'm letting hormones and insecurities create problems that don't exist.
Gah it's making me cringe just writing this! 

Then I got over it. Whether it's because my hormones decided to even out and give the psychotic thoughts a rest or I just decided who fucking cares?! 

This girl is on a mission to better herself both physically and mentally and no hormone or negative thought will stop me! 

Thanks for reading my ramblings!

Much Love,

Bex X

Tuesday, 22 November 2016

Voodou Liverpool

Hey guys!

I was lucky enough to be invited to an event at Voodou Salon in Liverpool recently which gave me the chance to check out there awesome services.

skull and cross bones logo for voodou salon in liverpool

First off this place is awesome! It's huge and I instantly loved the vibe. This awesome mosaic symbol takes pride of place on the main back wall, so I had to get a picture of that bad boy. Although this one is all thanks to Allie as mine got swallowed up by snapchat. Oops.

Downstairs is home to The Hippy Club where all your hair extension needs can be realised. They also make hair products as well! The owner Louise is a lovely lady who can rock a vintage hippy dress like no other. 

peace hair logo for the hippy club liverpool

The concept of Voodou and The Hippy Club is embracing individuality. Within these four walls you will find your perfect stylist and in the Bold Street store alone they have 23 artists ready to give you the cut of your dreams. 

selection of gifts available at voodou hair salon in liverpool

The set up for the #VoodouChristmas was amazing. It was fun, relaxed and I had a fab time meeting new people and finding out about what Voodou Salon is all about.

                                   make up sets are available at voovou salon in liverpool

They also have some cracking gift sets available which would be perfect presents for family and friends. You can check them out at www.voodou.co.uk

Also how cool are the chocolate sprouts?! Haha 

tasty christmas treats from marks and spencer

Voodou also work closely with Redken which is awesome and we were really lucky and got a goodie bag full of products to try! 

selection of redken products and hippy club dry shampoo to try

I'm excited to see how these work with my hair and I'm a big fan of dry shampoo so the hippy club version should be interesting to test out! 

Overall it was a fabulous evening and I'd urge everyone to give these guys a visit. They have loads of deals on just ready for Christmas so you know you're in good hands plus getting a saving as well! 

Much Love,

Bex X 

Sunday, 6 November 2016

Makeup Gallery || Testing Poundland Makeup

Hey guys,

I decided to follow the crowd and give Poundland makeup a go and I have to say I was pleasantly surprised.

full face of makeup by poundland

I spent less than £20 on a full face which if you're a student on a budget or just don't want to spend that much on makeup is great. I'd say give this brand a try.

I wasn't too impressed with the foundation or concealer as the shades and coverage were pants but the face powder, bronzer and blush were actually pretty good. Slightly powdery but not enough to put me off.

The metallic eyeshadows were lovely! Especially Pink Champayne which I used as a highlighter. They were very soft and didn't have any fall out so yay to that!

upclose of poundland single eyeshadows

I loved the black liquid liner! It had a small brush and I was able to draw a semi decent wing with liquid liner for the first time! I'm normally a felt tip liner girl. Lol.

Mostly as I have hooded lids I was happy to see that the liner didn't transfer on my upper lid so this will definitely be a keeper.

poundland liquid and glitter eyeliners

The glitter liners were OK, my only issue was I had to keep dipping my brush in the tube to get the product to show.

The brow pencil was good. Firm enough to get nice hair like strokes and had good pigmentation. The lip liner however was awful! Too hard with no colour unless I pressed really hard and I kinda like my lips without bruises ;)

Overall I'd say this brand was a win. Yes I personally had some duds but I was able to make them work and for £1 each it's not going to to annoy you if it doesn't work out.

selfie using only poundland makeup

I also did a first impressions video on my channel so if you fancy a watch you can find it here.

Have you tried Makeup Gallery? What do you think? 

Much Love,

Bex X 

Tuesday, 1 November 2016

Positivity, Weightloss and Achievements..

Hey guys,

I felt the need to share what's happening with me at the moment. 

roses with the beast, dragon and elephant tsum tsum

I started my blog Jan 2015 as a way to help me focus on my weightloss & as I'd decided to stop hiding myself because I'm 'fat' I wanted to experiment with make up and embrace my love of all things shiny. 

Diet wise I wasn't the greatest. I was up and down with gaining & losing. I had this constant need to think & talk about food especially the not so great stuff.
If I lost a pound I rewarded myself with food. I mean I deserved it right? 

Then I just stopped. I went right back to eating junk and gained even more weight. I still kept bubblybex3 going just with more of a focus on beauty but even that trickled to a few posts a month at best.

Fast forward to May 2016 and I posted my first YouTube video. This was to push me into kick starting the ole diet again. Whilst it didn't work, I found a love of making videos and trying to get my brain to understand basic editing. Lol

youtube banner for bubblybex3

Then July 1st 2016 I just started changing my ways. I'm not even calling it a diet because the way I feel it's just my life now. To be cliche: it's a lifestyle change.
I didn't make a big deal out of it, I just started. Didn't tell anyone or pre-plan or have a last fat meal before its salads and cardboard on Monday. 

This day was a turning point in my life. I accepted I needed to change before I put myself in an early grave and I made the effort to embrace a more positive frame of mind. I have good days and bad days but it's a step up from that dejected person the year before.

Fast forward again to November 1st and I've lost a total of 3st and 3lb!

Not only have I shed 45lb. I've also dropped 3 dress sizes not to mention 2 knicker sizes as well! *less junk in the trunk*
I'm even making more of an effort with my clothing. I mean it's still mostly black but I ain't rocking the baggy sweats and polo's from sports direct anymore! 

side to side comparison of Bex's face to show weightloss

I can honestly say I don't feel like I'm on a diet. I eat all the time, I'm just eating better foods or a different variation. The main thing I've noticed is I'm not thinking about all the things I'm missing or over stressing about getting weighed. I weigh in once a month. Before I had to weigh in weekly so I could treat myself. Now I don't need to do that. 

variety of meals that are tasty and healthy

Another thing I'm proud of is that I'm pushing myself to be more social. I'm attending events, I'm meeting new people and I'm having fun.

I also hit 300+ subscribers on my YouTube channel! For a fat chick with insecurity issues this is bloody exciting to see I can tell you! 

So whilst I'm not posting as much about my weightloss on here, rest assured I'm in a good place right now. I'm enjoying my life, trying new things and losing weight slowly but surely. 

Much Love,

Bex X