Sunday, 19 February 2017

The little things....

Hello everyone,

Can you believe it's nearly March already? Geez I sound old! Haha. I'm so excited for March 1st to hit because I'm hoping that weigh in will bring me to a total loss of 5 stone!!! So fingers and toes crossed!!

the difference losing weight makes

Anyway for those who've lost weight you'll know about those little moments where you really notice the changes. It can be something really simple but boy does it make you smile and feel proud of how well you're doing!

Today I thought I'd share my proud little moments so far on my weightloss journey.

  • at my biggest if I turned in the shower I'd scrape my bum across the doors. Now I can bop around like a crazy woman and don't even touch the doors!

  • my towel fits around me! Plus I have some extra so I'm like those actresses who have towel scenes with loads to spare ;)

  • I fit into shoes that I couldn't get my big toe in before! Bring on the heels!

  • I can see more of my eyes now. Before my fat kinda swallowed them up especially with my cheeks being so erm full. Haha

  • I'm using way less foundation!

  • on the same face theme I don't have to 'contour' as many chins as I used to do. Bex and her 5 chins are no more ;)

  • the cinema seats are way more comfortable!! No more squeezing my hips into those buggers! Now I can wiggle around like a toddler on a sugar high! 

  • I tried on some of my mums skinny jeans and they not only fit but were baggy in places! Move over Kendall...

  • I'm starting to see collarbones!! Woohoo!

  • The best thing is seeing the differences in my videos. I can not only see the physical changes but the confidence I have a gained is amazing.

I'm so excited to see what other changes I can see as I lose even more weight! For now I'm going to continue to booty shake in the shower without the fear I'll get wedged in! Lolz

Much Love,

Bex X 

Friday, 10 February 2017

February weigh in...

Hey guys,

Sooo as per my goals for 2017 I'm on the ball with this update...lolz

Ha my lack of organisation aside I thought I'd check in with Feb 1st's weigh in and all that jazz. So drum roll please...I lost 8lb! Woohoo!!!

January was a bit of a meh month. Between feeling a bit shitty and eating way more snacks than I needed to I was praying I'd lose something so to see an 8lb loss really cheered me up.
This brings my total loss to 62lb or 4 stone 6lb! Whilst this isn't the fastest diet I've ever done, I'm beyond happy with how it's going. I'm happy (most of the time), not hungry and I'm losing weight slowly but surely.
You can see the difference in the picture below. Same hair style, same dress and even the same lipstick...major weight change ;)

The exercise is still a work in progress. Although if mentally thinking about exercising counts then I'm practically an Olympic athlete! Haha 

My blog has turned a bit stagnant I'm not going to lie. I just feel like I don't have much to say anymore and who wants to read the wafflings of an insecure fat chick who's approaching her 30's! 

That being said I'm giving myself 'another' kick up the arse because who cares if no one reads! I'm doing this shit for me. I just get so overwhelmed with numbers and stats and other people doing fabulously that I let my own negative thinking ruin the enjoyment of just posting on my blog! So silly...

On a more positive vibe, uploading on YouTube is going well. I've set myself a schedule, every Monday I'll post my weekly vlog (I'm on week 6! Woohoo) and Wednesdays will be a makeup look and Saturdays will be a review type video. I think that's a nice mix and I'm really enjoying my channel at the moment. 

Anyway I've babbled enough. Here's to a happier February and a more centred Bex ;)

Much Love,

Bex X 

Sunday, 22 January 2017

A Thank You to Spectrum Brushes...

Hey guys,

For those who watch my videos or follow me on twitter you'll know I have a major love for Spectrum Brushes. I love everything about this brand and the products I've tried.

a massive collection of spectrum brushes in all there colourful glory

Not only are they the prettiest brushes you'll ever use but they actually work! It's not just a lovely looking piece of fluff on a stick but a functional tool to create many beautiful looks.

My all time favourites are the fluffy eye blender brushes. I use them all the time and in every tutorial I film. I'm obsessed!

Upclose view of some of the spectrum brushes bombshell brushes

Now you're probably wondering why I'm waxing lyrical about this admittedly amazing brand and not explaining why I'm thanking them. Well let me ease that confusion and explain.

upclose view of the bombshell set

A few months back spectrum actually contacted me on twitter and said they'd love to send me some brushes to thank me for all my support. This honestly surprised me. I was beyond happy and totes said yes and they sent me the original face contour set which ties in with my others in that range.
To receive one brush would have been amazing but to get a set of four was beyond generous!

selection of spectrum brushes original set

I didn't want to write this post to be all 'ooh look at me getting free shit' but to show how nice it is for a brand to recognise their customers. That's it, I'm just a customer who likes a brand and they've acknowledged that love.

On a business standpoint I do not have the numbers or readership to warrant being gifted stuff in a blogger/brand working capacity so this has nothing to do with exposure. It's simply a lovely gesture.

some of the white marbleous brushes

So I'd like to say thank you to Spectrum Brushes. You make fabulous brushes, you made my day when you messaged me on twitter and I can not wait to see what else your brand brings this year. 

Want to try these bad boys out yourself? Check out them out here and go crazy!

Much Love,

Bex x 

Wednesday, 18 January 2017

Hello I'm Fat...

Hey guys,

I am on a path to enlightenment and fulfilment and blah blah!

Ok scratch that deep shit. Basically I'm 29 years old and I'm finally getting my shit together.

I'm in the zone with my diet (4 stone down woohoo) I'm socisling more (I'm kinda insular and lazy. Lol) and I'm (sort of) letting go of the insecure chick who felt she has to apologise for every little thing. Ps I don't need to say sorry for x, y and z!

Look at my hair! I am a genius ;)

I'm happily single (shocking that I don't need validation off a man) and whilst I'd love my own home complete with a massive beauty room, I'm content to live with the parentals till I'm old and saggy. Well older and way more saggy, ha again with the lolz!

That being said (I'm losing track of my own point here) I wanted to hit on talking online. Now I'm not on about chatting on twitter about your latest drama or blog post. I mean chatting to a guy or girl who messages you that's not blog related.

I've recently had a few guys dm me to say hey who are not in the blogging community so it's not asking how I take my amazing photographs (that was sarcasm by the way) but to have a chat, maybe with the intentions of being romantic but who knows? Last time I dated I had blond hair and was crying about being in my twenties so it's been a while! 

I have no problem talking to people at all. My problem? frustration? pissed off anger induced rage at the world? is that due to being so bloody good at selfies (LOLZ) and getting the angle just right to hide the double chin/s and hamster cheeks I have to make a point of saying I'M FAT! 

Old photo! I don't look like this now but it gets my point across.

Why you ask? Because I get all the pretty compliments of being cute and beautiful and you're so sweet and lovely after seeing my (admittedly) fabulous profile picture but once I drop the chunky bombshell I never hear from them again! 

Is it sad that I have to get the fat shit out of the way so I can see if the dude really wants to 'get to know me' or if he just thinks I rock a red lip better than Marilyn Monroe? I know we can't help who/what we find attractive but it's just so obvious once I say I'm bigger than a size 10 that it's a 'deal breaker' in their heads.

I'm trying not to be cynical about guys and dating but when you know as soon as the 'you're beautiful' shit comes out of their mouths you'll have to burst their little romantic bubble it's really hard not to get dejected about this stuff.

This is why I don't lose sleep over being single as 9 times out of 10 my personality is way down the scale when it comes to my roly poly bits. Ah the fickleness of the male species is truely a wonder to behold 😉

Anyway I'm off to practice my pout. Pretty sure if I contour more I can look like a supermodel with cut cheekbones! Got to fool those boys somehow ;)

Much Love,

Bex X 

Ps: I've not said this to fish for compliments or worry over finding love etc etc but to show the fickleness of beauty.