Weightloss is a funny thing. For those who don't need or want to lose weight you'll never know the mental struggle you have trying to lose weight. Sure we can logically say 'eat less, move more' but that's like saying to a toddler having a tantrum to 'just stop' ever tried that? Yeah doesn't work that well.
February was a shit month I'm not going to lie. My PMDD was sheer torture to the point I deactivated twitter and Facebook because I'm a shit excuse for a human being and who likes me anyway?
Then to top is off the 1st of March saw my stats (blog & YouTube) look uber pathetic as I'm decreasing instead of growing (good for losing weight, crap for growing bubblybex3 lolz) which isn't the be all and end all but feeling like a raging hormonal bitch ready to go all Kung fu panda it kinda sucked. This isn't a cry for compliments by the way.
The icing on top of the shit cake was the fact I only lost 3lb in February!
Hold on!!!! Only? I only lost 3lb! ONLY!!
Let's take a step back! I lost 3lb. That's 6 cups of sugar that's been removed from my body and I'm sad about that?
I'll be honest, I wanted to lose 8lb so I'd finally hit an overall loss of 5 stone yet I should still see the success in losing 3lb. I think my disappointment stems from feeling hormonal and the fear that I'm losing my 'mojo' with my diet. I'm scared that as I'm feeling hungrier I'm suddenly going to go back to eating loads and gain it all back with interest.
I'm not but I needed this shake up to retweak my approach, get moving again (I'm so lazy) and acknowledge the fact I'm human. I'll have some bumps in the road but I shouldn't let this define how I deal with it!
March has been kinda slow in making positive changes but I feel like the fog has lifted to quote tangled and at last I see the light after living in darkness the last few weeks. Erm not trying to be poetic here, I really feel like I've been living in a dark bubble lately but I'm ready to smile again.
Here's to a more upbeat month...
Ps: feeling soooo much better now my hormones have chilled out and I'm ready to kick arse this month (I hope) haha